Let It Go

'LET IT GOOOOO LET IT GOOOOOO DON'T HOLD IT BACK ANYMORE' yes these words may be the lyrics to one of the best (but also one of the most overplayed) song of the year but they're also a new mantra I'm trying to live by. For years I've been shy, introverted and uncomfortable with myself, especially in social situations or when the attention may be put onto me. However, more recently I'm becoming so much more comfortable and happy with myself and it's simply because I've started to let go.

When you actually think about it who really cares what you do? At times it can really feel like the whole world is watching you and at times lots of people will have their eyes on you, but it's not every minute of everyday. I'm pretty sure when you're having fun with your friends you rarely look at every single person and think 'what the hell are they doing?'. If you did it would reduce the fun you're having in your own group and quite frankly it's nasty! I know that when I'm out shopping or at school I'm involved in what my friends are doing, not what other people do. However, if someone is fooling around it's quite likely that i'll just look over at them and think that they look like they're enjoying themselves instead of judging.

I think one of the most important qualities a person can have is confidence because if you're confident you exude friendliness and warmth (but there is a very slim line between confidence and arrogance so don't cross it!). Be confident in yourself because you are the only you there is and that's great. The appropriately named 'Let It Go' by the glorious James Bay has a lovely lyric which says 'Why don't you be you and I'll be me' and I can't think of a better way to phrase it. Also, be HAPPY about being you, we only get one life so live it how you want to. 

I recently did something so out of my comfort zone I may as well have been on a different planet but it made me feel so good about myself after. I dressed up as Santa and danced across a stage in front of 600+ people. If you know me you know that I don't dance, I don't perform and I despise being on stage but I simply thought to myself, it's my last year at school, screw it I'll do it! And I did it, I didn't trip, I didn't die and I actually enjoyed myself. I simply let go of what was holding me back for years and years before.

I look good right?

This time last year was my first Sixth Form disco but I didn't go because I had such a big panic attack I made myself ill. Fast forward to now and I went to the disco (in a bed sheet toga as my costume) and I had a great night. Yes, I had a drink before and during but again I simply let go. I stopped caring what others thought about me, my outfit, my makeup or my hair and I simply danced and enjoyed my last school disco. It always helps to have your friends with you and I'm lucky enough to have some amazing friends who stuck by my side the whole night because they knew I might get a little anxious (thank you, you know who you are!). 

I used to be, and still am to a certain extent, very self conscious. I have quite a large forehead, I often hate being so tall and I worry about my appearance too much. But I think I'm slowly learning to accept myself. I can't change my forehead size, I can't change my height unless I break my legs or do something ridiculous so why should I worry about it. If you can't change something you might as well learn to love it instead of hating yourself! Life is here to be enjoyed and not to waste time worrying and disliking yourself!

So, moral of the story is: wear what you want, do what you want, dance how you want and BE HAPPY. There is nothing more important that your own happiness! 

Much Love

Charlotte

XO

FOUR Deluxe Edition Review

I don't quite understand how we're already on the fourth One Direction album but I am so so happy about it. I love getting new music anyway but when it's One Direction and they've written it all themselves it makes it even better. I've decided to review the album track by track because I love it so much and I want to convert everyone to loving it, like I already have with some of my friends (Greenie)!

1. Steal My Girl  
Well this was the first single released (apart from Fireproof) and I love it because it's such a fun song. It;s perfect to dance around your room to or sing in the shower (I of course have done both). I LOVE the video purely for the complete randomness of it and how  different it is to their other videos

2. Ready to Run
 This was one of the tracks released in the week leading up to the album release and it's one of my favourites (I have many). I really like the guitar all the way through and how the song really picks up in the chorus with Harry's beautiful vocals. I love the lyrics too 'wherever you are is the place I belong'. I'm a soppy one I know!

3. Where Do Broken Hearts Go 
Also an early release which is also one of my favourites. It's a song that makes me want to dance and I think all of the vocals are so so good on it. It was written by Harry and none of  the other boys and I know it's one of their favourite tracks which demonstrates Harry's  writing talent (if you haven't heard Ariana Grande's 'Just a Little Bit of Your Heart' listen  to it asap because it is so beautiful and written by Harry).

4. 18 
Written by the wonderful and insanely talented Ed Sheeran I am deeply in love with this song. I think the lyrics are perfect, their vocals are so strong and it's just a perfect song. Good job Ed. This is the kind of song with lyrics that I wish applied to my life if that makes any sense? I listen to it and think 'I want this to happen to me' because it really is a beautiful love song. 

5. Girl Almighty 
I'll admit this isn't one of my top favourites but it is such a fun song to dance to. It's definitely a song that would cheer you up on a bad day. Liam's voice is pretty flawless on this track. 

6. Fool's Gold 
Okay this song is definitely a favourite. It's so calming, especially Niall's voice at the beginning, followed by Harry's as it goes into the chorus. When I first heard it when it was pre-released I listened to it on repeat, non-stop because it is just so pretty. All 5 boys contributed to writing this song which makes it quite special, especially as it is already one of my favourites. 'I'm not done yet, falling for you'

7. Night Changes
WORDS CANNOT EXPLAIN MY LOVE FOR THIS SONG. It's piano, their smooth voices, the beautiful lyrics written by all 5 boys (do you see a trend occurring?), it's just PERFECT. I'm unbelievably excited for the video, as I'm writing this they've released 2 teasers, one of Zayn and another of Louis and the audience is taken on a 'date' by the boys which kind of makes my heart melt a bit (and i haven't even seen Harry's part yet. God help me when I do!). 'It'll never change me and you' 

8. No Control 
Now, just like Girl Almighty I don't know how much I like this one. It's definitely a fun song and I can imagine on the tour that it'll be amazing but there's just something that keeps  making me skip it! It's still a really good song but I think because the others are SO SO  good I like this one a little less. Is that bad? 

9. Fireproof  
This one was released free when the album was announced and I immediately fell in love with it. The guitar really surprised me as there wasn't a great deal of this much guitar on 'Midnight Memories'. The harmonies on this are quite special!

10. Spaces
Yet another beautiful, slow song that I could so easily fall asleep to it's so calming. Like 'Fireproof' the harmonies on this are beautiful (I really need to expand my vocabulary!). The lyrics, written by Louis and Liam, are simply stunning. There are quite a few instances on the album when all the boys are singing and they are sounding so so good together I love it. Bring on the tour!

11. Stockholm Syndrome Written by the wonderful and perfect Mr Styles, I'm 99% sure this is my favourite track of the whole album. The lyrics, their voices, the tune, the guitar, the drums, literally everything I LOVE. This is definitely going to be amazing live, I can already see Harry on stage 'dancing' (or should I say prancing?) around the stage to it. There's little I can say about this other than how much I'm in love with it. 'I fear I'm getting used to being held by you' 

12. Clouds 
I wasn't sure about this one at first but I'm definitely growing to like it more. The chorus is my ultimate favourite part of this one. It's quite a shouty kind of chorus which is probably the best for me as I cannot sing at all, completely tone deaf (honestly ask anyone who knows me!) 'We're never coming back down, Yeah we're looking down on the clouds' 

13.Change Your Ticket 
My first thought was 'OH MY GOD THIS IS LIKE THE 1975'  and I love the 1975. My second thought was 'HARRY PLEASE STOP SINGING ABOUT ME GETTING BACK INTO BED WITH YOU BECAUSE I CANNOT COPE'. Along with Stockholm Syndrome,  Fool's Gold and Night Changes this is one of my top favourites. It was, again, written by all  5 of the boys (definitely a theme here) and I love driving home to it. I don't really know why but it is the perfect song to put on full volume and sing along, having a little dance (driving safely of course). 

14.Illusion 
Ah yes, Illusion, another one of my favourites (I have many okay please don't judge me). The chorus, again!, is so good and (of course) I love the lyrics. It's another one of those songs I want to happen to me. 'I promise falling for me won't be a mistake'

15. Once in a Lifetime 
This album is crammed full of soft, guitar love songs and I'm not complaining. This isn't my favourite out of all of them (shocked? so am I!). But, of course, their harmonies on the chorus are glorious and the lyrics (again I want them to happen to me!) are so pretty, good job Payno. 

16. Act My Age
 I feel I'm in the complete minority when I say I FREAKING LOVE THIS SONG. It's fun, I love the lyrics because it makes me think of Harry with kids (and how could that not make anyone happy?!) and I just want to dance when I hear it. The whistle at the end, which I'm  98% sure is Harry, makes me laugh and I don't even know why. I JUST LOVE IT. 'When  I’m fat and old and my kids think I’m a joke, Cause the stories that I told, I tell again and again, I can count on you after all we got up to. Cause I know that you truly understand' (This needed a lot of lyrics because I couldn't chose my favourites!)

Help pls

Then is the beautiful video of the Behind the Scenes of the photoshoot. Highlights include:

• Harry's appalling basketball 
• Liam getting the basketball in from sitting on a car
• Harry's abundance of hats that make him look glorious
• Narry photos
• The Narry hug 
• Their wonderful outfits 

F L A W L E S S

I realise now this is an extremely long, wordy post but I have a lot to say and nowhere and no one to say it to! 

I really hope you all love the album as much as I do! It's already number 1 in 100 which is actually insane and I'm so so proud of the boys!

Which is your favourite track? Let me know in the comments please!!!! 

Much Love

Charlotte 

XO

50 Facts About ME!

So I'm tired and I want to write another post but I can't think of much. So I've decided to be completely unoriginal and do the 50 facts about me tag. I haven't planned this and I may really struggle to think of 50 facts but less give this a try.....

1. I was born with a collapsed lung and pneumonia
2. I'm around 6ft 2 tall
3. I lived in London for the first 7 years of my life



One of my favourite pictures of us

4. I used to have a Welsh Cob called Daedalus and I LOVED him so much 
5. I HATE mushrooms, the texture makes me squirm
6. I'm in my last year at school and I want to study psychology at university
7. Rowing kind of controls my life (not that I mind of course)
8. Twitter and Tumblr are my favourite social networks (go follow me please!)
9. Chocolate is my weakness
10. I have a weakness for boybands (One Direction and 5SOS specifically)
11. I'm the worst procrastinator ever (or best depending on how you look at it)
12. I want to travel the world
13. Noisy eaters annoy me
14. Slow walkers also annoy me
15. Rude people annoy me too
16. I've been to 3 One Direction concerts (one on every tour) but that's not enough
17. I'm tone deaf but I wish I could sing 



I mean just look at him 

18. Harry Styles makes me weak, he's seriously beautiful
19. I have a younger brother who is the complete opposite to me
20. I can listen to the same song on repeat for a week and not get bored of it
21. I can't make decisions, I'm so indecisive 
22. 98% of the time I'm wearing kit, pyjamas or school uniform
23. Dolphins are my favourite animals
24. I'm scared of heights (despite being 6ft2)
25. I wear glasses and they're the bane of my life
26. I want my belly button pierced 
27. I'm desperate to get tattoos
28. I can't wait to have a family of my own
29. I love reading I just barely have enough time
30. Despite the cold I love winter because of Christmas and my birthday
31. Spring is my favourite season though!
32. The brain fascinates me so much
33. I once got off a see-saw and it fell on my brother's head (he never lets me forget it)
34. I love the sea but I hate swimming in it because I can't stand seaweed
35. I hate beaches because I don't like seaweed
36. I can't not exercise everyday
37. It irritates me how few shops accommodate for tall people 
38. I get sad at the smallest things
39. I cry too much in films 
40. I'd love to row for GB
41. I want to live in London
42. I have my driving license 
43. Unusually I actually love school because I crave learning new things
44. Rude, disrespectful people frustrate me so much
45. I'm a feminist
46. I can't do my eyebrows properly or evenly
47. I get attached to people too easily 
48. I love children and babies
49. I watch way too much youtube
50. I LOVE MY BLOG

YAAAY I made it! It was quite difficult and I don't know how many actually count as proper facts but it was quite fun to think of facts about myself. 

What's one fact about you that makes you different? 

Much Love

Charlotte

XO